“I Love Lucy” Was Never Just a Title
Someday I’ll stop writing you letters.
Someday the spark we felt will diminish.
I wish I could pretend I never felt it.
I wish you weren’t my best friend, and that I never trusted you.
I think I’ll remember that feeling for the rest of my life.
No matter how many times you screamed, or threatened, or made fun of me to your friends.
Once two people existed, with love that could shake the Earth. And after that split second of perfection, we gave each other a Hell I hope other people never feel.
‘”I Love Lucy” was never just a title.’ – Desi Arnez
Pam said,
August 17, 2010 at 10:06 am
I guess lots of people can relate to these words and I am no different. Divorced for over 22 years…high school sweetheart,and we were ‘the’ couple….’the’ couple that everyone else wished they could be.
Instead of writing letters I listened to music and poured my heart into the songs while crying my eyes out. And, as is said, time does heal …really it does.
Admittedly, reading this particular excerpt (have not read anything else you wrote yet), I felt a rush of memories, a rush of feelings…but the feelings I felt reading your words were not like fresh cuts on my skin but more like hearing loud whispers coming from behind a curtain, making it easier to handle, to feel.
You write beautifully, explicitly, and……I am definitely going to read the rest!
christinerobyn said,
August 17, 2010 at 11:14 am
Pam,
Thank you for your kind words. A lot of the time I feel like I don’t have someone to talk to, or that they will regard whatever I’m saying as stupid. Whether it’s true or not, the writing helps so much to get everything out there without the fear of being judged.
Comments like yours helps me realize we’re not alone and that there are a lot of other people going through the same feelings we are.
Thank you again for your comments and I wish you all the best.
Christine